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[19 Oct 2005|07:20am]
[ mood | tired ]

it's 4:20 somewhere...
no, actually i've been quite good recently. i haven't had much time to be cabbage (ya, if that's possible) but i still like stating the fact and acknowledging the somewhat sacred time slot. haha. anyways, ya. someday i'll get back into this, but if you read this thanks and i'm sorry for being flaky and i'm sure i love you immensely.
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M and me

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[13 Aug 2005|09:35am]
[ mood | blah ]

so i'm seeing a new therapist. all i can say is that she's amazing--(is that wierd/bad to say?). my first appointment was last saturday. i saw her yesterday as well. and i'm such a dolt, i showed up late for the first appointment. well, at least i'm not giving her any false impressions. it seems like whenever i'm working with that family, time has bitten me in the ass. my eyes have been totally re-pealed as to how small of an island this is. her dad is my dad's boss who's son was my history class' professor who's other brother i went to school with and who kinda surf-skis/paddles with my mom and used to swim with my sister. heh. funny shit. anyways, i gotta go clean out the cabrio. Image hosted by Photobucket.com it's for sale.

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lab rat [11 Aug 2005|08:53am]
[ mood | blah ]

i saw the first full rainbow of the year yesterday. i know it was a sign--i was fucking lucky.
will i ever learn?
am i really in control any more? or am i so in that i'm out?
i feel like i'm such an imposter. gosh...if people only knew. i'm really not such a good person. and i'm realizing the astronomical impact of chemicals; balances and imbalances. and there's a chemical cause and fix for everything. gosh someday i hope i can fix me.

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scaled [03 Aug 2005|07:57am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

fuck, i can't do this. i blew it. now i'm accountable. christ. ... i don't want to turn into a marshmallow and i definately don't want to do any "transitioning".
what to do today, what to do today.??? any suggestions?

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[02 Aug 2005|10:01pm]
gosh, i'm a little too worn out to give a real update now, ...but soon. 
i have to pee.

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[01 Aug 2005|11:39am]
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to update or not to update? [26 Jun 2005|04:30pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

...pondering a real update...
...forgive me for becoming so lost...
...i'm back???

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[19 Feb 2005|08:46am]
[ mood | dissappointed, but it's okay ]

Wow. i was floored yesterday at the size of this campus. It's gihugic. i stayed at the rec center alone for four hours. Al's at a lacrosse game in Greeley right now and her friend Andy is passed out on her bed. i'm going to steal a random picture of hers and put it in this entry i think. So i have so much stuff to fill in. i can't believe all the stuff that's gone on i haven't written about!! So sad! ...After browsing and browsing, i saw this one and just knew.

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[18 Feb 2005|05:19pm]
[ mood | stoned ]

Wow. i've let so much time just slip by without being able to put this here. i haven't had the internet at my apartment because i've moved and i've been on vacation and busy as a bee on coke. These past few weeks have been a trip. Err, many many trips that i'm going to try to backdate and sneak into here, so pay close attention, because i've written some of it down on paper and some of it i can fake because it's my life and i can. So yeah. i'm going to try my best to be "back". i'm going to find somewhere at home or stay up here and write.
love everybody.

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[17 Feb 2005|04:49am]
[ mood | mellow ]

i got offered a job at Starbucks today. i drove through the drive-thru this morning and the girl from Kauai who works there named Carrie (sp?) gave it to me saying i should work there and they need pretty much just one more partner for the morning shift. How ironic, yeah? My earliest class isn't till 12. That might not be late enough, but if i work early, it should be. The only catch is, i would have to give up my mornings. Ick. That's a gross thought. But who knows, maybe i can shuffle things around a bit and it'll work out.

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[21 Jan 2005|11:39pm]
"You don't have time to waste on a broke mutherfucker because you're a tiger and tigers die early."
That was pretty much the gist of Life Lessons 101 by Jesse and Krisha. i'm not a tiger, but some in the group were. The tigers needed "brainwashing" to get the stupid guys outta their head. They need to get out of the situation. "They're beautiful ladies and they deserve better."
i never thought i'd park in the harbor and burn with Jesse and Krisha. i'm glad we all went. Them guys plus Sadie and Ashley and Leia make good times.
It was a Friday night at Kintaro. We drank and ate around a teppanyaki table.
i'm going to Canada for a week tomorrow. i'm all pack up.
Shoots then.
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[21 Jan 2005|03:51am]
Survey...Collapse )
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[21 Jan 2005|03:19am]
[ mood | i have to pee! ]

i already know this entry's gonna be so cabbage.
Today Ashley asked Sadie how much she'd have to pay for Osirus, Sadie said, "i'd give him to you for a million dollars, then i'd steal him back again."
i have a bag that's been everywere with me, Ashley pointed out. It really has been everywhere with me.
Zellie did cool stuff in woodshop. i told Sadie guys that if i ever took woodshop, i'd purchase the boxed kine bookshelves from Wal-mart and bring em in class and put the thing together. i'd sign em "screwed by jen".
It really was a cabbage day. We went all the way out west and sat and turned around and came back. It's been a really irie break. i dunno how i'm gonna go back to school.
Just say no to beef stew.

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[19 Jan 2005|11:25pm]

Check em...Collapse )

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Buggin [18 Jan 2005|04:18pm]
[ mood | dirty ]

Cut to hide the pics--not something i wanted to look at all the time...Collapse )

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[18 Jan 2005|09:49am]
[ mood | barely awake ]

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I drank enough coffee to exceed the point of legality, if a regulation were to be created.

What did you do?

Brought to you by geek-foo

Yes. So true. i need some now.
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[17 Jan 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | unproductive ]

Highlights...Collapse )

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[13 Jan 2005|01:52am]
Put your pin on my map bitch.
(i dare you.)
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[10 Jan 2005|09:25pm]
[ mood | high ]

Which Rock Chick Are You?

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[09 Jan 2005|12:45am]
What Color is Your Brain?

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At work or in school: I like to be with people, sharing with them, inspiring them, and helping them. I work and learn best when I can take into consideration people and the human element. I flourish in an atmosphere of cooperation.
With friends: I always look for perfect love. I am very romantic, and I enjoy doing thoughtful things for others. I am affectionate, supportive and a good listener.
With family: I like to be happy and loving. I am very sensitive to rejection from my family and to family conflicts. I really like to be well thought of and need frequent reassurance. I love intimate talks and warm feelings.
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